Updates on Life

Hello there,


Chemo - Chemo was canceled for this week (it should have been Tuesday, October 6) because my finger nails and toe nails are still looking pretty ugly. I will go in on Monday, October 12 and I will have Avastin and/or chemo, but that won't be decided until I see the doctor.

I'm not sure what is next, perhaps, he will order me to start the three chemos I haven't had, perhaps he will have me continue on Avastin, perhaps he will send me for a CT Scan, OR perhaps he will buy me a plane ticket and send me for a vacation.....I doubt the last one, but a girl can dream : )

Once I find something out I will let you know. Please pray that he will order a CT Scan. I'm about all out of patience (not that I really had any : )

Hand Lotion - Thank you to all who sent me hand lotions or hand lotion recommendations. I have purchased EVERYTHING recommended and a few things that simply sounded good. Of course my hands still look horrible, but I think I'm a little over sensitive to how they look. Since I haven't had chemo in a few weeks hopefully they will start to heal and look a little less sad.

Hair - My hair is growing back slowly, but surely. It is coming in a lovely salt and pepper. I'm hopeful that as it continues to grow the pepper will will overtake the salt OR I will be making a quick trip to the salon to have it dyed back to my natural color. I am almost over the hump of looking like a rat without my hats on. Once the hair is long enough all hats and scarves will be packed away. If it weren't for the hair loss you really could hide your cancer from those people you don't want to share it with and being able to do that would make it easier...most days.

Children are the BEST! - My good friend Nora shared this story with me and I hope she doesn't mind that I share it with you, but it touched me so deeply that I just can't help myself.

I went to Nora's house without my hat on one afternoon and I really didn't think anything of it because Nora's boys are young so I thought they wouldn't even notice. Well, I couldn't have been more wrong. So here's what happened....

Seems when Nora was tucking her son into bed that evening and they were starting their evening prayers she said my name (they pray for me every night - yeah me)

Well his response to hearing my name was "Mom, we don't have to pray for Maria anymore."

When Nora asked him why....he said because "she's not sick anymore." I think Nora was hoping he had some child to God conversation and knew something no one else knew....so she asked him what he meant and he said (I love this) "Mom she's didn't have her hat on" (Like duh Mom...no hat....all better.)

Now the fact that I still don't have much hair didn't bother him at all, but the fact that he connects no hair and my hats with my being sick...well that says it all. I have to admit that since Nora shared this story with me I have been feeling a little better : )

Have a wonderful rest of the week. I know I am looking forward to the weekend!
Maria